read this when you're so angry you shake by MisfitableGrae, literature
Literature
read this when you're so angry you shake
little drops of oil make rainbows on wet concrete
and i don’t know how beautiful you find that,
but sometimes you gotta learn that
the littlest things are the prettiest,
like the shape of your fingernails and the crinkles
you get at the corner of your eyes when you laugh and
when you grow old and i know i said “grow old”
like it’s a temporary thing, but that’s because it is.
you can think it’s forever but it’s really
a split second because you don’t matter, not when
the universe is still growing and speeding through a nothingness
we can’t even fathom, not when color doesn’t exis
i read about serial killers not saints by MisfitableGrae, literature
Literature
i read about serial killers not saints
she says, “what are humans made out of,
if not emotions and quirks and mistakes?”
i think to myself that humans are made
out of sinew and bone and tissue and if god hasn’t
found a way to love us bloodily and morbidly
then he will never be able to look past any
of our self-taught imperfections.
but i say none of this, just nod and smile,
and wonder what it means that to her,
all that i am is a series of mistakes stacked
on top of each other. my entire body is a past
i cannot outrun no matter how many times
i move away and forget my name and who i used
to be.
she tries to take away my body, but i have fought
for sixteen yea
Monster inside me by living-in-his-head, literature
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Monster inside me
There is a monster
who resides in the place
between my skin and bone.
No one can see Him
moving through me,
or the battle we face.
Ongoing.
Doctors call Him Borderline
People call Him crazy
I call Him monster
When I speak with Him at night
He is like gasoline to flame;
a daredevil, thrill seeking beast,
who feels everything in extremes.
Continuing to drag me down.
Love; Hate; Love; Hate; Love.
Secure; Insecure; Secure; Insecure; Secure.
Hero; Villain; Hero; Villain; Hero.
Empathy; Empathy; Empathy; Empathy.
I hate you;
Don't leave me.
Be a fool, a beautiful little fool by living-in-his-head, literature
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Be a fool, a beautiful little fool
When the love I’ve searched for
like a child digging through weeds
for a four-leaf clover
rests upon your lips
gently
like pollen on a petal
or on the tip of your pen
as you pour out what
you can’t say out loud.
How am I to pretend
I’ve not found the one four-leaf clover
in a field of three-leafed ones
when I hear your voice shake
minor rifts on the Richter scale
during chance run ins.
Or the imagery you write
in our colors
under the moon’s glow
while he snores beside you.
You gave away midnight powwows
Gatsby parties for two
and carpe noctem
the day you cinched yourself
with a golden corset around your finger.
I
I’m a ship inside a liquor bottle.
Manned by the ghost deck hands,
of the skeletons in my closet.
Long since wrecked and abandoned,
by the currents of my past.
Led here by the trade winds of your sweet, strawberry breath.
Deceived by the lying Polaris of your entrancing smile.
Your gifted spyglass neglected to tell of rocky shores
Capsized, overturned, sunken, forced down, shipwrecked,
into the lonely grave of my fragile glass prison.
Lungs, thorns, and broken things by living-in-his-head, literature
Literature
Lungs, thorns, and broken things
Water and steam swirl in a shroud,
emphasizing the coldness of the air,
as I let the water fall.
And wash away the night before.
And wash away my trademark scent
of cloves, cologne, mint, and vodka.
Though some things can't be washed away.
I turn the hot tap up further.
The water stings my shoulders, my back, and my chest,
like alcohol cleansing a wound.
As the increasing steam turns the shower into a gas chamber,
and I fight to find small pockets of oxygen.
Maybe I can snuff you out of my lungs this way?
I turn the hot tap up further.
My skin is red and my knees go weak.
As I search for my mind in hide and seek,
but I know I left it in t
Her reply to my scars by living-in-his-head, literature
Literature
Her reply to my scars
“You’ve been to hell and back,”
she said, as her fingers
traced the civil war grounds
of my shoulders.
“And you’re still here,”
she continued, as her eyes
found mine,
filled with understanding.
“I don’t see how that makes you crazy,”
she finished,
with a smile
on her ruby lips.
“I love you,”
was all I could reply,
unsure of this tenderness
concerning my scar covered skin.
“Just don’t cut yourself anymore?”
she asked, right before her mouth met mine.
"I wish you saw what I see in you.”
The braille of you by living-in-his-head, literature
Literature
The braille of you
I live to read the Braille of your body.
Tracing each word with the tip of my tongue,
carefully, precisely, in all the right places.
B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L.
⠃⠑⠁⠥⠞⠊⠋⠥⠇
S.E.X.Y.
⠠⠎⠠⠑⠠⠭⠠⠽
P.O.W.E.R.F.U.L.
⠠⠏⠠⠕⠠⠺⠠⠑⠠⠗⠠⠋⠠⠥⠠⠇
I.N.T.O.X.I.C.A.T.I.N.G.
⠠⠊⠠⠝⠠⠞⠠⠕⠠⠭⠠⠊⠠⠉⠠⠁⠠⠞⠠⠊⠠⠝&
For the love I hold and present to you
Show me the best and worst parts you hold
With eyes glittering, heart of gold
And to give you all this happiness as we watch it unfold
Dancing into the night as the sun grows old